So, I do not know how or why, but it seems more and more that, the more we try to help people, the more we are taken advantage of.  I am really struggling with this.  On one hand we have CHRIST, telling us look for a chance to help our neighbors.  Who is your neighbor??  Well, who is my neighbor?  everyone that is in need is a neighbor.  When you do for the least of these, you have done for CHRIST.  So as me and my wife try to help, it inevitably end up with, but not always, the person just taking advantage of us.  I have seen more and more “friends” call me and ask for help, only to have the sound of crickets chirping in the back ground, the moment we have finished.  This is the part that grabs me in the wrong place.  I know the next thing that mos people will say is ,” that’s the only reason he does thingsfor others. to get something in return”.  NOOOOOOOT.  I don’t mean it that way.  I mean that when I am having a tough time, and people know it, it seems like, you know how every one reacts when a teacher asks if anyone would be willing to pray for a group. They all look busy, or their eyes start rolling around.  This is how i feel.  this past year has been a tough year financially. ME and my wife have always been ope to giving as much as we could to many people.  And these people love them some JT and Heather. NOt all of them, but a good bunch have been really tough to get a hold of, when the money ran out.  I know this is a rambling story, but I feel alone from this.  No encouragement. from anyone.  Younow in the beginning, GOD created the world, and it was GOoD.   ect ect.  Everything HE created, it says it was GOoD.  except one thing.  When HE created man, and saw that he was alone.  Had no companion, HE said it was not GOoD.  So he created a help mate.  This is what i think is the essence of discipleship..   Walking through life with each other… And when you are walking through life all alone, it is not GOoD.  So there it is.  i am selfish, and feel alone…

How would you handle it?

   So I will never say I am perfect. At any thing. Just a huge work in progress. Every day I make monumental mistakes.  I raise my voice at my children, I get angry after the first 1000 people almost run me off the road, I have these thoughts of anger well up in side me.  I look back to what the BIBLE says,” out of the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks.”  And I wonder, just what is going on inside my heart…  So I pray, ever day that GOD will Give me a heart that is peaceful, not teach me, but give me. LOL.  If you know me, I am a hard-headed stiff-necked person.  I would be the dog that eats the fence 20000 times and get yelled at and almost given up on, and maybe even kicked a few times. Yep that is  me!

    So here is the dilemma, me and my wife have a heart for kids who are without parents, or kids in the foster care system.  We have had some kids from the system in our house on and off for years.  It is a struggle for me sometimes.  Not with the kids, but with the rules.  Now I understand them, but I still have a little struggle with them.   Now, we have 3 kids of our own, and now we have one on the way.  We also have a 10 yr old, that is not ours, and not from the foster care system.  We have her, while her parents get their lives back together.  Now she is not the biggest issue.  I also have a 20 yr old.  He lives here with us, in an add on room that we built for him.  On brand new furniture, we bought him.  He pays no rent, and no food.  We have paid off his car note so he could afford insurance, which we pay for right now.  He is going to college right now on grants from our government, which by the way, I pay for!!  Is it wrong for me to be angry when he misses school, and when we ask why, he says,” this class is a waste of gas to go to. I can just get the notes from someone else and take the test.” . So let’s get this straight,  he lives with us for free, eats for free, goes to school for free, and complains about going to a college class that will further his life!  IS it just me, or is there a problem with this scene???

HOW WOULD YOU HANDLE IT!!!

What the H e double hockey sticks

   Man i tell you, every time i think i am able to watch the news or look at the internet news, I am shown why I hate it.  ABC news has some videos of the “VIEW”, and they are talking about, of course the normal junk.  And every time they open their mouths, i almost scream.  All i hear is them bashing some CHRISTian, about their beliefs.  And sometimes the belief is not bashing someone else, it is just state n a fact.  Like Glen Becks comments about the earth quakes n Japan.  How  this could be a sign of end times,  and for the record, it just very well could be.  They were going on and on about how stupid to believe that a god, could be causing this.  Now if Glen beck or anyone else were to go on a show and rant about a homosexual or islam, the entire world would come down on them. I am torn.  Torn between praying for them, and asking GOD to just smite them off the face of the earth.  I want them to see JESUS, but they really make it hard for me to pray for them.. What would you do?????

what is true faith

    Today was a little different.  started out the same, but got deep quick.  I went to church just like every other sunday, but the message was really GOoD.  It was a message from Luke17: 11-19. Great story.  I loved pastor Pete’s take on it, but i really felt Dr. Duncan’s heart in this message.  How Jesus healed 10 men of leprosy, and of the 10, only 1 come back to worship.  wow 1!!!!

    Then in the late service, i was one of the deacons asked to pray with Brett, and then spend the next hour in our prayer chapel, praying for the service and all the people.  his message was, ” what is true faith?”  Me and the other deacon sat and talked about what this ment for a little bit, so we could more resonantly pray for this.  i expressed my view, and then he, his.  He is an older deacon, excuse me for my not mentioning his name.
Not to spare him anything, but if u know me,  I just forgot it…  man i feel dumb.  When we both had talked a while bout our own take on FAITH, and what is needed, we prayed.  I honestly do not remember praying like this ever!!!  I talked to GOD, and worshiped and just feel at the feet of our KING..  When i got up, i felt such peace, and JOY.. 

  So what do i say true FAITH is?  Well, it is much like Pasto Pete said in his pod cast.  basically it is DISCIPLESHIP, (def. one who embraces and assists in spreading the teachings of another)  So how do you disciple? Look back at how JESUS modeled it.  He didn’t have some one go down and say a prayer, and then get baptised.  No,HE looked around, found some guys, and began to teach them, and model to them, what it is HIS FATHER in HEAVEN wanted.  HE showed them over and over again..  How to LOVE, how to share, how to care, for the lost, the un-LOVEd, the hurting.  Rich or poor, young or old, this religion, or that, this color or that color(to all the ends of this world)  HE is the very essence of what FAITH is, should be.. 

  HOw do we go from over here to over there?? I am not all-knowing.  All i can do is, pray, for JESUS guide me in this.  I will most likely make many mistakes, but will get back up, begging for HIS forgiveness, and surrender some more….   And then just LOVE on someone.  Maybe even someone who doesnt LOVE me back..

Killing time

     So working today in the burnet area.  It was a great drive up there.  Got to listen to a couple of Louie Giglio pod casts..  Mostly about FATHERs.  How we look at our HEAVENLY FATHER, and compare HIM against our earthly father.  At one point i had to pull over, get out of my car, and take a little walk. I talked and walked with GOD.  Asking him to reveal to me what it is HE wants me to understand.  Walking down an old road in burnet Tx, that use to be a bridge over inks lake, I sat down and just prayed. Looking at the road, with fences going down both side, as to keep people from jumping off the bridge, i saw how wide and straight the path that leads to destruction is.  Thinking about how the last time i went to Brazil, and we hiked up into the mountains, and there was a really steep, curvey climb. With lots fo steeps, but u could tell that not to many peopl went this way.  I started to compare these two paths, and wondered, which path am i on????

What road are you on????

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     So what do i write.  What do I say.  Heck i dont even know if it will be readable. I am hopeing i remember to capitalize and put punctuation in, and lets not forget about spelling.  i always say in text messages, ” arrrge, stupid spell check”.  Where would i b with out it?  and the auto captital thingy-ma-bobby…  Oh yea, what about all the times i shorten the word, like ” r u going 2 b there @ 3???  lets face it, it is a fast paced world, and i am a fast paced dude! or maybe u could just say i am lazy!!  mayb!!! so is this what my first blog is about? probably!!  i am not a smart man, but i do like chocolates!!  what??? exacty. Pastor Pete was saying that he likes my txt messages, cause he has to work tounderstand them.  i understand them all. why cant you??  anyway, i am going to try to write more later.  more about my wonderful life..  and all the mysterious things that go along with haveing 3 kids, one on the way, and 2 semi-foster kids.  did i mention i am a little phychotic??  well i am not, i am the kind or person who likes pain, whats the word for that??  oh wait, its crazy!!!!  lol   ok  i will go fo now, and mebe next time, there will b spelling, punctuation, and maybe there will be entire workds….